Monday, December 13, 2010

The Grades

Post #100: Dedicated to: Marry You; Glee

Someone tell me it's okay that I'm not perfect. I don't need to get A's and perfect scores on everything in my life. It's okay. You'll love me anyway, you'll love me the way I am.

Who I really need to hear this from is my parents. Unfortunately...

I never feel like enough. For once in my life, though, I'd like to hear my parents tell me that it's enough that I'm attending an amazing four-year college. It's enough that I'm learning new things everyday, I'm exploring my interests, I'm developing my skills as a writer and a critical thinker, I'm challenging myself every single day.

But unfortunately...

I think the only thing my dad would say if I told him that is: where is all my money going? How is this going to help you in the future? What are you going to do with your life? How are you going to get into graduate school? Where are the grades?

The grades, my dear father, are much more difficult to obtain than you might think.

I think that's the one thing that's keeping me from being an English major - something I feel that, deep down in my heart, is what I really want to do.

Damn the grades.


A great way to kick off my 100th blog post.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Sheltered

Post #99: Dedicated to: I Want to Spend My Lifetime Loving You; Marc Anthony and Tina Arena
I've lived a fairly sheltered life. But now, I feel like that is being used against me, as if it's going to be a disadvantage out in the real world. Every time I feel like this, I'd just quell my feelings and ignore them, but they just keep resurfacing now. So I don't know. Sometimes I feel like I wish I was more experienced in all things of the world...but at the same time, that scares me. A lot.

And it also just makes me sad when people don't seem to have the same great experiences as I do. I guess you're bound to come upon that everywhere, but for some reason it always just comes across to me as a great shock. And then it bums me out.

I feel like I haven't seen the real world yet. Just a sheltered nothing.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Ahhhhh

Post #98: Dedicated to: All I Do is Win; DJ Khaled

I can't think anymore.