The Grades

Post #100: Dedicated to: Marry You; Glee

Someone tell me it's okay that I'm not perfect. I don't need to get A's and perfect scores on everything in my life. It's okay. You'll love me anyway, you'll love me the way I am.

Who I really need to hear this from is my parents. Unfortunately...

I never feel like enough. For once in my life, though, I'd like to hear my parents tell me that it's enough that I'm attending an amazing four-year college. It's enough that I'm learning new things everyday, I'm exploring my interests, I'm developing my skills as a writer and a critical thinker, I'm challenging myself every single day.

But unfortunately...

I think the only thing my dad would say if I told him that is: where is all my money going? How is this going to help you in the future? What are you going to do with your life? How are you going to get into graduate school? Where are the grades?

The grades, my dear father, are much more difficult to obtain than you might think.

I think that's the one thing that's keeping me from being an English major - something I feel that, deep down in my heart, is what I really want to do.

Damn the grades.

A great way to kick off my 100th blog post.

Sheltered

Post #99: Dedicated to: I Want to Spend My Lifetime Loving You; Marc Anthony and Tina Arena

I've lived a fairly sheltered life. But now, I feel like that is being used against me, as if it's going to be a disadvantage out in the real world. Every time I feel like this, I'd just quell my feelings and ignore them, but they just keep resurfacing now. So I don't know. Sometimes I feel like I wish I was more experienced in all things of the world...but at the same time, that scares me. A lot.

And it also just makes me sad when people don't seem to have the same great experiences as I do. I guess you're bound to come upon that everywhere, but for some reason it always just comes across to me as a great shock. And then it bums me out.

I feel like I haven't seen the real world yet. Just a sheltered nothing.

Ahhhhh

Post #98: Dedicated to: All I Do is Win; DJ Khaled

I can't think anymore.

Almost There

Post #97: Dedicated to: Say Anything

Close to home. So much to do this week including three papers, a presentation, and an a cappella show, but I'll get through it. And I'll get through the week after that, too. And then it will be finals week, and then I'll be

HOME.

What To Do?

Post #96

I'm so stressed out. I don't know how to cope with it. I have so much to do, not enough time to do it all, and not enough time to sleep.

I'm worried for my mental health, my physical health, and my grades.

I don't know how I'm going to get through these next three weeks.

I'd rather not celebrate Thanksgiving, but spend the entire extended weekend catching up on work and getting done with assignments that are rapidly approaching.

I'm stressed, and I don't know what to do.

Day Ten

Post #95

Day Ten: One confession:

I'm doing the best I can.

I was wondering for days now what my one confession was going to be. After my day today, I decided that this was it.

I'm doing the best that I can, okay? It might not be good enough for you. Well, tough. Learn to live with it. Or stop complaining, and do something about it.

Day Nine

Post #94: Dedicated to: Thinking About You; Norah Jones

So much to do, so little time. I wish I could stay caffeinated for life.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now

Day Two: Nine things about yourself

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot

Day Five: Six things you wish you'd never done

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

Day Seven: Four turn offs

Day Eight: Three turn ons

Day Nine: Two smiley faces that describe your life right now:

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Hahahaha, according to a list of yahoo messenger smileys, the first one means "sleepy" and the second one means "yawn." Ahaha. I laugh.

Day Ten: One confession

p.s. K-: I'm taking so long to write your letter, sorry! I literally (literally, not figuratively. Heh.) have so much to do. I haven't even watched this week's HIMYM yet - and I usually watch this Monday night or Tuesday at the latest...ahh! But your response will come soon...or after Thanksgiving... (;